Friday, January 18, 2008

Life in Iraq: Final Entry


I recently read in a friend's blog, "It scares me that sometimes I wonder if the deployment is my only reality and everything else is just a dream."  I couldn't have said it better myself.  The problem with the deployment is that every time you let your mind wander into thoughts about the future, all you see is more Army and future deployments, motor pool followed by stop-loss.  It's not so much that you dread this experience or the here and now.  It's that while you are here, now, the rest of your life is on hold, and it seems never ending.  What gets people through experiences like this are thoughts of the future, but when all you see in the future is another deployment, the mind game gets a little tricky.
So you stop thinking of the future, and you focus on the now.  Your 6 x 10 corner of life becomes your home.  Your friends and coworkers become your family.  Your job becomes your life, your reason for being.  And everything else--family, home, all the comforts and beauty of the world accross the ocean--it all becomes a distant dream.  The scary part is when it's no longer a dream you even miss really.  And I guess that's all part of the survival mechanism.  Some people begin to look for love here instead of longing for it over there.  You find fun in the simplest of things, rather than missing the old forms of entertainment.  The most fun you need is a friend who makes you laugh, and after a while, you don't even miss the movies and bars and restaurants.  Good food becomes a relative term, and after a while, you forget what really, really good food tastes like. 
And I guess in a way, that's not such a bad thing.  It's a sort of Zen-Bhudist state of mind.  When you were once dreaming of the big house with the wrap-around porch, you now find that a 6 x 10 space is all you really need.  When people come and go every six weeks, and you realize that sometimes you enjoyed knowing them for those six weeks more than you ever enjoyed the company of some friends you once had, it gives you a new perspective of human relationships and what it means to really know somebody.  And you definately learn to be more forgiving because you have to be--we are, after all, stuck with each other over here, and under the circumstances, we're all gonna get a chance to see the uglier sides of each other every once in a while. 
So I guess in some ways, the deployment becoming your reality isn't necesarily a bad thing.  But deep down inside, somewhere, there's always that voice that tells you there's another life you could be living.  And it's not the material comforts or relative safety of that life that's calling to you.  It's the love and the family that you either have, or wish you had, over there.  Because no matter what you experience in life, if you have a partner who's going through it with you, it changes everything. 

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Iran and the National Intelligence Estimate


Well the world was abuzz today with news of the National Intelligence Estimate that re-assessed Iran's nuclear weapons program. All the headlines, from the broadcast networks to the pages off the printing press, read the same: Iran gave up its weapons, but U.S. policy remains unchanged. Now it's no surprise that Bush critics and certain elements of the press are overlooking one key finding in the estimate that suggests our policy should remain unchanged, but it is even more frustrating that Bush has once again failed in his own defense. The fact is that the report states Iran continues its efforts to produce weapons-grade material, namely highly enriched uranium (HEU). Furthermore, the report states that Iran's so-called civilian uranium enrichment program and other R&D programs that have conventional military applications constitute technologies that could be applied to the development of nuclear weapons--all of which are programs that have NOT been halted. According to the authors of the report, Tehran is, at a MINIMUM, "keeping open the option to develop nuclear weapons."
The NIE assesses that Iran's centrifuge enrichment program is most likely where Iran would begin to develop enough fissile material for a nuclear weapon, should Iran decide to pursue such plans, and that Iran did in fact resume its declared centrifuge enrichment activities in January 2006 (under the pretense of civil, rather than military, intentions of course.) The report further states that significant progress was made in installing the centrifuges in 2007, although Iran still faces significant technical difficulties in operating them (is this supposed to make us sleep better at night?) And finally, the report assesses that convincing Iranian leadership to abandon all future plans of eventual nuclear weapons development will be "difficult," to put it mildly. News outlets are quick to point out that the report estimates Iran would not be capable of producing enough HEU for a nuclear weapon until the 2010 - 2015 time frame, and that leaves me wondering if reporters and journalists realize that we are coming up on 2008.
The bottom line is that, according the report's own footnotes, when the authors of the report state that Iran halted its nuclear weapons program in 2003, they are referring specifically to work on weapon design and COVERT uranium enrichment. The so-called "halted" nuclear weapons program does not refer to uranium enrichment projects that Iran has declared as "civil work," which could be applied to the development of nuclear weapons, and are, incidentally, projects that are alive and kicking.
So in light of what the report actually says, I don't know which is more frustrating--Associated Press headlines like "Nuke Report Means US Should Ease" and "Like Iraq, US Intel on Iran Faulty," or the fact that once again, while Bush is clamoring to defend his position, he fails point out the most relevant facts--Iran continues its uranium enrichment efforts, which could easily be applied to nuclear weapons development. I simply do not understand how anyone could read the NIE and walk away with a sense of comfort or relief about Iran's intentions. Please read past today's headlines. Read the actual report.http://www.dni.gov/press_releases/20071203_release.pdf?loc=interstitialskip

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Halloween?

Well, I suppose if I am officially moving over to Myspace, I should probably use the blog. There's not much to say these days, except keeping busy at work. The time has been flying by, but this month is crawling, as I am anxiously looking forward to going home on leave in November--and if I time it just right, I will miss all the legwork of Thanksgiving and show up just in time for the leftovers!

A friend recently sent me a Halloween care package--witch's hat and wig and all--and in his letter, he expressed concern that it might not arrive in time for the holiday. Can you believe I actually had to look at the date on my watch to figure out if I missed Halloween? (It was only October 25th!) I keep loosing track of my phone calls home because I never know what day it is, or what day it was when I last called for that matter. Needless to say, whenever I do look down at my watch to check the date, I am very depressed that it is still October!

The good news is, we should be moving out of tents and into cans (trailers) soon. I will miss the M*A*S*H ambiance of the tents, although it's not quite the same without the moonshine distiller. Alcohol would make this place so much more entertaining, although I don't know when I'd actually find time to drink!

Well, the internet cafe is shutting down, so I better wrap this up. More to follow at a later date ....

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Moving to Myspace 12, 2007

Well, I'm moving over to the darkside. As much as I hate to do it, I will be slowly moving over to Myspace. Yahoo has made adding photos to 360 way too dificult, and registering for a 360 page is a pain in the rear for most people, so from now on, I will be making posts to Myspace. Besides, everyone and their brother already has a Myspace page, and it's too time consuming to keep up with two blogs. I still say my 360 page looks cooler, but what can you do? Gotta go with the flow, right? Anyone who's looking for my Myspace page can find me by searching for me by last name, or by my yahoo email address.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Wrong Turn! July 17, 2007

You know you took a wrong turn somewhere in life when a freshly-hosed-down porta potty makes your day.

Monday, July 16, 2007

July 16, 2007

"Nothing will make a woman forgive you simply and directly. She'll humble you to the dust, bring forward things that have never happened, recall everything, forget nothing, add something of her own, and only then forgive you." -- Dostoevsky

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Our guys (3rd ID) and The Surge, 2007

http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/world/iraq/article2072894.ece

Soldiers of the surge: the vital battle to win hearts and minds
Locating US military outposts in remote Iraqi communities is the latest tactic against al-Qaeda as politicians in Washington clamour for the troops to be ordered back home
Deborah Haynes in Patrol Base Whiskey One
Barricaded inside an old village school south of Baghdad, scores of US and Iraqi soldiers defend themselves against an almost daily barrage of mortar bombs, rockets and gunfire as they try to secure a key road used by al-Qaeda to transport weapons.

The dusty compound is bare, save for makeshift beds. There is nothing to suggest that this was once a place of learning for children. Beyond the blast walls that surround it lie arid fields and a smattering of houses.

This shabby outpost is at the heart of President Bush’s Iraqi strategy. And it is, therefore, at the centre of a raging political debate in Washington that could yet see US troops hurried home.

It is one of four such camps established in the lawless Arab Jabour region since mid-June as part of Mr Bush’s troop “surge” – his last-ditch attempt to curb the violence that is crippling Iraq.

“We did not expect the level of resistance we have seen,” said Captain Dave Underwood, 37, the senior officer at Patrol Base Whiskey One. But this does not disappoint him. Rather, it is a sign of success.

“This tells us we are getting in their [al-Qaeda’s] way and that is good news,” he told The Times from the rooftop of the small, sand-coloured building, where his men – Iraqi and American – eat, sleep and work.

Such outposts give US troops a permanent foothold for the first time within local communities. Previously they had operated from isolated fortress-like bases around the country, going out to clear hostile areas before heading back after a few days.

Colonel Terry Ferrell, the US commander in Arab Jabour, said that the extra manpower provided by the surge allowed troops to integrate better with the public and win the all-important support of tribal sheikhs, who command huge local influence and are starting to speak out against al-Qaeda.

Colonel Ferrell plans to increase the number of outpost to six by the end of August. “We are having an impact on the insurgency in this battle space because people are coming out and helping us, whereas in the past they have not,” he said.

Pushing into hostile regions, however, comes at a price. The death rate of US soldiers has increased since the surge began in February, piling pressure on the White House to demonstrate that the strategy is working.

General David Petraeus, the commander of US forces in Iraq, is due to deliver a progress report to Congress in September. Failure to convince Washington that the surge is a success could result in an accelerated withdrawal of US troops.

On the ground, some junior soldiers say openly that they would welcome such a move because they are fed up with Iraq’s hot, dusty conditions and believe the mission is doomed. “Surge me home,” said one soldier taking shelter from the sun on a makeshift bunk bed at Whiskey.

But commanders give warning that a hasty exit would be disastrous, especially when early evidence shows that the new approach to tackling the insurgency is bearing fruit.

Stretching across an expanse of dusty farmland on the northern tip of Babil province, Forward Operating Base Kalsu is a vast compound of barriers, tents and trailers from where Colonel Ferrell’s 2nd Brigade Combat Team, 3rd Infantry Division – the last brigade to arrive in Iraq as part of the surge – oversees its operations in Arab Jabour.

The area up towards Baghdad, snaking along the west bank of the Tigris river, is largely Sunni Arab and has had no real police, army or local government since the March 2003 invasion, enabling it to become a haven for al-Qaeda.

With two main roads cutting through the land to Baghdad and Anbar province, Arab Jabour is ideally located to transport car bombs and weapons.

Colonel Ferrell said that his 3,000-strong force was stopping this by setting up outposts and checkpoints along the main river road and the second key route as well as conducting searches and raids on the many small villages that dot the region.

“We wanted to block the insurgents’ ability to get into Baghdad and we wanted to kill or capture any insurgents operating in this battle space,” said the commander, noting that 240 militants had been killed or arrested since June 16.

One third of the area – which measures about 800 sq km (500 sq miles) but where only about 1,500 people live after more than as many again fled during the insurgency – has already been cleared.

Colonel Ferrell said that the rest would be done in several weeks. But it would take much longer before Arab Jabour is secure enough to be handed back to the Iraqi Security Forces.

Heavily outnumbered, the rebels are fighting back by littering roads and paths with buried bombs rather than confronting the US forces. They also shoot at patrols from afar or fire rockets and mortar rounds at military outposts.

This creates a nerve-wracking environment for the troops who, more than ever, are putting themselves in harm’s way. Colonel Ferrell has lost seven soldiers, mostly to improvised explosive devices in the road.

However, daring to venture down the dirt tracks that crisscross Arab Jabour is the only way to secure the area and make contact with civilians and tribal leaders, which commanders say is the key to cracking the insurgency.

These treks, made at night or early morning, are tense journeys. Soldiers scan the surrounding palm groves for any sign of movement in the long grass. They tread in each other’s footsteps, searching the ground for wires or mounds of dirt. But such risks are an essential part of the surge, bringing troops face to face with Iraqis on a sustained basis.

“You want to use the tribes because they are important social organising mechanisms,” said General Petraeus this week during a visit to Patrol Base Murray, another of the military’s four outposts in Arab Jabour. “We have not used them as effectively during our time here to put it mildly.”

When mortar bombs fall, no one flinches, so conditioned are the soldiers to such blasts.

Bloody attacks by al-Qaeda have already prompted a number of tribal leaders to agree to cooperate with US forces in areas in and around Baghdad, where – unlike in Arab Jabour – the surge has been active for a few months.

“Al-Qaeda are terrorists, also the militias are criminals and we have to stop them any way we can,” said Sheikh Imad Mohamed Talal Gurtani, a senior Sunni Arab leader in Iskandar-iyah, a town also south of Baghdad.

He and about 20 other sheikhs visited Forward Operating Base Kalsu on Tuesday to meet an Iraqi police commander and a major from another US unit that has been operating from the camp since last year.

“With every breath in me, this meeting is the sort of thing we are trying to do,” said Major Rick Williams, of the 25th Airborne. “It has taken nine months’ work and 45 men killed to achieve this,” he said, moved to tears by the moment.

He added: “The real surge is the Iraqi surge. They are getting more people to join the Iraqi security forces.”

Tribal leaders have the ability to deploy a large number of supporters to fight the insurgency. They also have the advantage of local knowledge.

In a potential sticking point, the sheikhs want the US military to arm them – a request that is forbidden by the Iraqi Government for fear of creating yet another militia. This problem was resolved in Anbar province, a former al-Qaeda stronghold west of Baghdad, by creating provisional police units out of local tribesmen, who would ultimately be integrated into the regular Iraqi police .

Although it is still early days for Arab Jabour, Lieutenant-Colonel Kenneth Adgie, the commander at Patrol Base Murray, said that such a model should be used there. “If the challenge of weapons gets answered [by the Iraqi Government] those guys will be on the street in 48 hours,” he said. “If we try to do it with just coalition forces it will go slow. We need their help and they need ours.”

Whether or not the mission will be a success is a moot point for US troops living the reality of the surge in the sweltering heat at patrol bases Murray and Whiskey. “I don’t even know why we are here,” said specialist Jeffrey Hankins, 22, who is based at Murray, where most soldiers go on long patrols, snatch a few hours of uncomfortable sleep on low camp beds with no air-conditioning and live off military rations.

“It is like fighting someone who is not there because we are going up against IEDs [improvised explosive devices]. It makes me feel helpless,” he said. Asked if he wanted an early withdrawal, the soldier added: “I hope so. Pull us out.”

Captain William Lyles, 26, disagreed. “We are out there everyday protecting our surroundings. I think we need to stay here long enough to make this country stable,” he said, while on a night time foot patrol. “It is dangerous but I like it.”

Colonel Ferrell, for his part, cautioned that all the good progress in Arab Jabour would go to waste if his troops were pulled out prematurely. “We would go back to where we were before, with the fear of the people and the impact al-Qaeda was having right there in our battle space,” he said.

Local Iraqis touched by the surge of US troops seem grateful for the increased security, but some are scared of getting too close to the Americans in case they leave.

“I cannot help the coalition because I worry that if I do and the soldiers go then the terrorists will come back and kill me,” said Mokdat Ahmed Shahib, a 40-year-old security guard, who lives in a village near Patrol Base Murray. He was speaking as a group of US military medics handed out free medicine and advice to scores of families, who had no other healthcare facilities in their village.

Marwan Faisal Mezhir, a 19-year-old student, took his brother Tarik, 3, to see the military medic about an upset stomach.

He said: “It has become more secure in my neighbourhood since the Americans arrived and I can once again leave my home.”

Triangle of death

The Triangle of Death extends from the city of Youssifiyah in the northwest, to Latifiyah in the south, and Mahmoudiya in the east

The fastest route from Baghdad to the Shia shrines in Najaf and Karbala runs through it

In 2004 the French journalists Christian Chesnot and George Malbrunot disappeared making the journey from Baghdad to Najaf. They were held by the Islamic Army for 124 days before being released

In 2004 reports circulated that insurgent leaders in the area were offering cash bounties of $1,000 (£500) for a Shiite, $2,000 for a member of the Iraqi National Guard, and $3,000 for an American

On June 16 2006 two American soldiers, Pfc Kristian Menchaca and Pfc Thomas Tucker, went missing after their Humvee was ambushed at a checkpoint near Youssifiyah. The bodies were found days later, mutilated and booby-trapped

In June 2007 insurgents linked to al-Qaeda released a video claiming to have killed three US soldiers missing since their combat team was ambushed inside the triangle on May 12

Source: Times archive

Saturday, July 14, 2007

The Price of Lunch and Dinner


The Gang's All Here ... Almost


This is most of our little crew, when we first arrived in country. Unfortunately, half of them are elsewhere now, and I miss them terribly. Hopefully we will all see each other again soon, as things never stay the same for too long around here.

Home Sweet Home!


Friday, July 13, 2007

PT Test! July 13, 2007

Well, it's been forever since my broke ass squeezed out a 2-mile run, but I finally did it! Just barely--but I did it! That's pretty huge for me, so I thought I'd share!

Monday, July 2, 2007

Entry for July 02, 2007

One of these days I will add some more photos to the blog, but I figured I should post something for those of you good enough to sign onto my site. The trouble with a blog for someone in my position is that all I do these days is work and sleep, and as you all know, there's not much I can say on a blog about work. Which kind of leaves sleep, but the trouble with that is you kind of stop dreaming when you only sleep 5 hours a night. I don't say that to generate sympathy--in fact, even though I often wake up more exhausted than I've ever been in my life, once I am up, I generally feel more rested and energized than I ever did trying to keep up with the rat race in New York. Speaking of which, I do miss the city terribly, but the trouble with New York is that you never have time for the people in your life, and let me tell you, if there's one point being in Iraq drives home, it's that there is absolutely nothing more important than the people in your life. (that and green stuff--you know, trees, grass, etc.). And there is nothing more precious than your freedom. So humor me for a minute, and let me tell you a few things I've learned in the very brief time I've been here: If you hate your job, quit--you can. Make time for your family--when they're not around, you'll wish you had--but don't waste a second trying to make other people happy unless they're willing to meet you half way. Life is too short to spend all your energy worrying about who doesn't approve of your decisions. Enjoy your life, and unless you're willing to devout your life to a cause, don't espouse firm opinions about one. Acknowledge that reading the Economist before you go to bed at night does not make you well informed--it just makes you informed enough to think you should have an opinion, but trust me, you shouldn't. Especially if it's about the war. Other than that, I guess I don't have too much to say. One of these days I'll post some pics with witticisms, if I have the energy to be witty. I'm counting the days till R&R, and reshuffling my list of goals for my real life back home (this is just my fantasy life that I still can't believe I'm living). Making babies is steadily rising to the top of the list.